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Sunday, June 17, 2012

This Life His Hands Have Built

I felt it fitting to pull this one from my archives for today, dusting it off and adding a little too. 

This man I've married? He loves differently than I do.  His love smells of wood shavings, of hard work. It is found in the quiet spaces of your heart. 

While I find tiny scraps of paper to write my love to my children, he creates a control panel box for fireworks. 

He, will light the sky on fire with his love.  He will stay at a table well into the night, silently stripping wires, drilling holes, muttering things about currents that i will never understand -

just so that he can watch his love explode and dance on our children's upturned faces.


This man. This father. Takes my hand in those moments, and without a single word spoken, through his touch I know our hearts are speaking. I am home. 






While we install hardwood floors this week at our house, I am reminded how unbelievably lucky I am to have Jason with me in this life.


As I watch (because, let’s face it, I’m useless in this regard) him work steadily, I love this floor not just because it is a massive improvement to the ratty carpet we are replacing, but because I see each board as another line in a love letter to me…every row measured and cut a new stanza, every bead of sweat dropped, life poured into my own.


This gets me thinking of all the love notes left for me all over my home:


The screen door he has to reset every time the kids and I try to use it…
the sandbox built of cedar…
the spackled walls of a bathroom I was ballsy enough to think I could handle on my own (I couldn’t)….
the train table in O’s room,
the built-in closet in A’s….
the camper he drove to get and stocked with groceries for a trip he wasn’t taking…
the kitchen ceiling, counters, cabinets…..



His hands crafted this sense of home for me.



Every mismatched outfit the kids land in for the day
Every birthday cake, steak, pie, kabob, salad he makes just the way I like them
Every car tune-up, oil change, breakpad
Every day spent at a job less than ideal
Every Christmas present assembled Christmas Eve by the light of the tree
Every 50 pound box of books he moves for me…again, annnnd again
Every “airplane” ride he tirelessly lifts the kids in the air
Every tear I've cried as he holds me in our bed



These hands shaped me into a wife, a mother, a friend.


These hands enclosed around mine as I brought forth two new lives
These hands that find mine while we're snuggled on the couch for movie night
These hands that absent mindedly run over my wedding ring, tracing the circle of our love
These hands that scoop up sleeping limbs and dreams and place them safely in their beds at night



His hands built this life for me…



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64 comments:

  1. oh. my. heart. sighhhhhhh. beautiful, tara! "these hands. . ." yes. they do shape us in so many ways, don't they? we are blessed to have men that shape us in ways that bring out the best of ourselves.
    have a beautiful day!
    steph

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  2. Tara, stunning reflection of your love. I too get this -- I have a husband who has "these hands" that do so much so lovingly every day, including shaping me.

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  3. So beautiful I'm in tears - both celebrating the love you two share and remembering all of the love "notes" my husband writes for me. We are lucky girls. Great post.

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  4. Loveliness and truth - so beautifully said. Thank you.

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  5. Oh,yes, we are blessed by our men who love deeply and differently than we do. Beautiful! Thanks for getting me thinking about my own sweet guy and all the ways he loves quietly and humbly. I'm glad you dug this one up again.

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  6. Oh yes to all of this....
    May I never take my husband's hands for granted....

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  7. Lovely post. Very grateful for the man in my life. I can relate to the hardwood floors! We did ours 2 years ago over 4th of July weekend...with each board we can look back and smile.

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  8. Beautiful.... Real life and real love.... <3

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  9. I love how you describe your husband and how his love has shaped you. Beautiful!

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  10. Oh, just beautiful. simply beautiful. My husband is a server love language, building, working - laying hard wood floors, too - like you say - are all love letters! Growing into yourself in that kind of love is a beautiful thing!

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  11. Tara...this is beautiful..and I love how you say He has built you...so glad you have eyes to see who God has made him to be and that he was created to love you. lovely...blessings~

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  12. Aww, ho wsweet. He sounds like a great (useful) guy...

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  13. Oh this was so very beautiful. You captured your love perfectly.

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  14. Just gorgeous and so damn true! love can be shown in many ways

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  15. Oh, my friend. You captured a little glimpse of your life right here on the screen.

    Isn't it funny that we are placed with those so different than us? But those who love us so well.

    Blogland is better because of you.

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  16. Absolutely amazing. Such a wonderful love story. Truly beautiful.

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  17. Acts of service, they speak volumes without words. He loves you well and you have accepted this way he loves you beautifully. What a lovely tribute to your man and a snapshot of your life together. Your words, beautifully strung together again and again. I'm better for reading them.

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  18. This is so very beautiful. It is so important to remember the ways in which our loved ones love us back.

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  19. This is so beautiful. May you always remember to see these acts of love...

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  20. Oh my goodness this went straight to my heart. Beautiful about your husband and his love (and yours) and such a much-needed reminder for me how my husband shows his love in a different way than I do. Thank you.

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  21. What a beautiful love story. Told so well. :)

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  22. The lens you view your husband through shows his true loving self, how he uses his gifts to build a home and a life for a family he so obviously and dearly loves.
    Thank you for this glimpse and reminder of how to see the love in our own relationships!

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  23. This was very beautiful.
    I love your descriptions and lists of all of the gifts he's given you.
    Great job!

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  24. Beautiful imagery. Sounds like quite a guy.

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  25. beautiful. what a father's day gift - and how important a reminder to all of us to see how the people in our lives write their "love letters."

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  26. Wow. From a guy's perspective, let me just say that this is awesome to read. Showing the respect you have for him because of the things he *does* for the family is going to fill his tank. I hope he has read this.

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  27. you make magic with these words of yours....beautiful, loving, fantastic images.

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  28. I love this tribute to a man. I wrote a post similar to this the other day, but without the fineness or style. beautiful.

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  29. The ways we show our love are so much more vivid that mere words. Well captured.

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  30. Ah, Tara, he sounds so much like my wonderful man. He'll never write me a love letter with a pen and paper, but I need only to look around our house, at my truck and at the children to see the eight million practical and loving things he's done for me. Love this post.

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  31. Oh my word...I can hardly breathe for the tears choking my breath. This, my friend, is perfectly beautiful.

    And, it really made me think about the love notes my own sweet love has left me that are not necessarily words (because, really, that's my thing, not his) but his love spilled out in his sacrifices, actions, touch, leadership, protection. I swoon every time he says "I love you" and he grins and says "did you forget again?", because sometimes I need the word reminders. But how often have I forgotten to take notice of his reminders of love that speak much louder than words.

    I love this.

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  32. I'm new to these blogging parts, and I am so happy to have another chance to read your words. Last week you left me in tears. This week I'm smiling but teary-eyed too. You, my dear, are a brilliant writer.

    Thank you for sharing!

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  33. The love notes he leaves you. Ohhhh. My husband leaves love notes in the form of dirty socks stuffed into the cushions. I kid, I kid. He's messy, but he adores me, and I'm hard to adore, so I'm thankful.

    Your writing is, as always, beautifully poetic.

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  34. Simply beautiful. I could totally relate, though I could not have said it nearly as well as you did.

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  35. big smiles...your love of your husband shines through....the love notes he leaves you were a highlight for me...as sometimes we dont see those things as love notes but....beautiful write...

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  36. This made me cry. Because my husband and I are struggling right not and in counseling. I know we will get through it, but there's been so much going on that we don't "see" each other (literally & figuratively) much lately. Right now neither of us would be able to summon up what it took for you to write this, and that makes me sad. I feel guilty that we've lose each other. We are taking a vacation next week and I hope we can reconnect a bit that way.

    You are lucky. You are loved. Your husband and your life sound wonderful, beautiful.

    Thanks for sharing this with us.

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  37. I love how you are looking at your husband, Tara. You are teaching us how to look at our husbands in a way that often eludes me and I'm sure others as well. Thanks for a lesson in loving!

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  38. You speak of love so well, Tara.
    <3

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  39. This is a beautiful tribute to the ways of true love....spoken through action! :-)

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  40. stirred up my thanks so deep and sweet
    and I thank you that:)
    your heart is a stunning beauty,
    Jennifer

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  41. A man who can build and create. How awesome for you. And beautifully written.

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  42. This is the sort of letter that every man/woman wants someone to write about them.

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  43. what a love letter! you had me in tears. this is stunning.

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  44. Lovely. You are so fortunate to notice the traces of love in the little things, the actions that roar louder than the most powerful words.

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  45. To be able to feel that for another is amazing. To be able to express it in words... so, so lovely.

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  46. swoon. what a sweet tribute. love the last sentence...
    your words just always slay me.

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  47. I love this picture of how you can SEE his love letter to you in the acts of his hands. I have always been fascinated by hands.

    "May the favor of the Lord our God rest upon us; establish the work of our hands for us -- yes, establish the work of our hands." Psalm 90:17

    What a beautiful, firm foundation that has been laid through your husband to your home.

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  48. Well, you are very lucky! And it's a wonderful tribute. k.

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  49. So beautiful - I loved this.

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  50. Oh, this is just beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing all those love notes. :)

    Blessing to you.

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  51. Sweet writing to honor a loving husband and father. You are blessed. :)

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  52. thank you for noticing, and sharing all these beautiful love notes from your husband...what a gift to you and your children...blessings to you, Tara :)

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  53. What an awesome list. To see love in those many ways - an inspiration.

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  54. I have chills. This is simply beautiful

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  55. This is absolutely beautiful. I can only imagine how he felt as he read this. If only everyone was given such a lovingly, honest, crafted letter like this while we are alive and well. Sometimes we hold on to all these precious thoughts and never speak them. Forget to say them. Good for you for expressing them and so poetically and true.

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  56. What a gorgeous post! And for your consistently gorgeous posts, I give you the inspirational blog award! Come grab it!

    http://erinmthrelfall.posterous.com/7-strings-attached

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  57. oh girl, you love him so well. xoxo

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