With Owen losing his second tooth, and the obscene amounts of mama pride I felt for something I had no part in,
it made me think of a Jesus, two teeth missing, gap tooth beaming at his mom.
Mary must have wondered looking into his face,
"there's got to be more to this. This child is not strong enough to carry the world."
We get the God perspective when we read Mary's story.
We know each time we read what contribution she makes,
what contribution He makes.
But staring at her son,
knobby knees, tripping over his feet as he races off to play with his siblings -
She must have felt let down. Wondered out loud:
"I thought he was destined for more."
Besides that one angel's greeting; Mary did not get reassurance that what had happened to her was valid, fruitful,
or would produce what was fortold.
Each day as Jesus ate her out of food,
as his neck thickened and his shoulders widened with the effort of his father's trade,
did not her mother's soul cry for the injustice that for her son,
she had been promised more.
Her soul knew he was more than
She had borne the disownment.
The utter abandon and wild seeking eyes of Joseph when he learned her news.
She carried through that night on the blood soaked hay
because the angel had told her
"He will be great and will be called the Son of the most High."
Instead, it was only his mama's heart he touched as he squeezed her hand in thanks.
When in excitement he scooped her up fully in his becoming man embrace.
Yet, when she looked in his eyes, she knew.
From the moment of his conception she was steadfast in her devotion.
Did this not anger her all the more?
And as the years pass, and she heard tell of him becoming the man she knew him to be,
did she not crumble as she stood below his broken body.
as she watched vinegar pass to those lips
that used to seek nourishment at her breast.
that head, now adorned with bloodied thorns
that she once cradled in her lap.
Did not her inner soul rebel against her maker?
that deceitful messenger
that promised redemption
a savior of men.
Where were those wise men
and their gifts of gold?
Where was the star that shone
and brought those shepherds to their knees?
The skies darkened
while his broken cry rang out.
As he lifted his eyes to heaven.
She had faith in her Son.