|Five minute Friday: Unexpected|
|don't let this sleeping face fool you...|
From birth my daughter has brought with her a zeal for the unexpected...
cord wrapped around her neck four times,
to the wailing and insufficient eating
(that caused the staff to ask if she was experiencing "withdrawals" of some sort...my postpartum horror, trying to explain, no, I was not on any drugs...)
My son had been relatively easy, and he remains to be. He lives in his head, he's sensitive, loyal...his little brain works a lot like mine. So, I thought (the lover of control that I am) that I had this down.
Then, Ava danced into my life,
full of fits,
refusing to be alone,
brazen in her own strength.
She also carries with her
the world's best laugh,
best kisses (because she makes you work for them),
fantastic artistic taste,
the freedom to break out in dance, wherever she is.
She has been placed in my life to teach me the joy of the unexpected. To stop, right where I am to experience this life I have been given. The beauty in the immediate world around me, not just what I am striving to become, what I wish to accomplish. Right here. Right now. Immediate beauty.
Daily, moment by moment, she gives me the opportunity to choose to love well, as opposed to love easy, by what comes most naturally to me.
Ava, the meaning of her name is "Little Bird",
she teaches me to let go, and fly.
|How she came out of her room to be dressed for the day...|