"We're all just walking each other home." - - Ram Dass

Monday, February 1, 2010

Fresh Air

This weekend I went out...are you ready? Two nights in a row! Friday night I was technically out with my parents, so I'm pretty sure that null and voids the fact that I was out with out children, but regardless of my social standings, I had a very fun time. Cory had shows here in Appleton, and since they didn't start until like 10:00 I was able to put the kids to bed and go out without feeling guilty.

Saturday, I decided despite my "oh, I shouldn't", that I had fun the night before, and therefore should go again. I'm very happy for that decision. I had a great time at Cory's show, and more importantly hanging out with people that matter to me. I haven't laughed that hard in a long while, nor been such a dork without side looks from my children or my husband. And when I got home at 5 that morning, I didn't regret one minute when at 7:15 the kids woke me up. I felt like I had taken a deep breath after not realizing that I had been holding my breath.

That got me thinking, hazy, coming off of the wine and the lack of sleep thinking , but it just reaffirmed for me what I am looking for this year in my life. For years now it seems as though I have been preparing myself for something, even out of high school it was college/Colorado, then being married, then becoming a mother, then caring about being good at my job and to keep getting good grades, you get the picture. Even with this blog, I want a way to explore being "me" again. As important as being a wife, a mother, a monetary contributer to my family is - - I am more than those things. I am someone who needs to laugh awkwardly loud, make jokes that are sarcastic and most likely uncalled for, to sing, to dance, to stay up late just talking. I haven't been that part of me since like High School. This weekend, I feel like I did all those things and am grateful for those of you that allowed me to do that.

1 comment:

  1. i haven't laughed like that in a long time either. and you know, even though i'm lucky enough to get a lot of late nights out, you were the one that made those 2 nights completely unforgettable. that's why i will reiterate: i'm boycotting all shows in appleton unless you are present.

    think the next one is march 14... just saying...